Good , bad and indifferent

It's been a funny old week. Had the 2 year all clear from the cancer which was good. The bad was that so many of my friends have seriously I'll loved ones.

The mammogram was very painful this year and it's left me with a very sore boob, so very uncomfortable I even cancelled my session with Dave today. I'm seeing my surgeon Monday so I'll ask him about the pain, it's probably just the pressure of the machine on the scaring .

It's our 10th wedding anniversary this year so I thought I'd throw a bit of a party ...hubby is keen so that's not where the indifference comes in.

The indifference is me! Can't quite put my finger on it but there's something not quite right with me at the moment. There's nothing wrong with work, home or stuff like that. I'm well, we've just got two new hens , a poly tunnel and he's ordered a new shed so at least I can get into the garage!

broken bodies and not just mine

Paddy Cunningham you wanted weekly photos so here they are. Check me out in my new Olympic stuff ...( JJB online sale  - great bargains to be had!)

Yep - here is the comedy of this blog - me on the bosu....I actually think this is how Dave gets his kicks when I try and remember all the moves without falling off - 1 - touch toes, 2 - march on spot , 3 - step back off the bosu and return. Laugh! imagine 1, 3, 2 1,1,1,2 ,3 ,1,3,2,3,2,3 especially when I couldn't even remember what 2 was ...this was halfway though our session so I had already busted my balls at this point! and yes ...I'm laughing!

Now this gorgeous specimen is Lydia - she's onl;y 21 but has the hands of an ancient priestess - yep she is the person who puts me back together again. she gives the best massages in Cardiff and I'm not too proud to say she makes me scream! It's not just broken bodies she helps to mend ...she can help relax the best of them. Take my friend Betty Red and her lovely daughter Megan, they are really going through it at the moment, and the lovely Lisa and Lydia at Je Suis Spa helped to ease their pain for just a few hours. If you haven't read on my facebook or twitter about their plight then you are in for a shock but also a lot of inspiration. They're fighting to save someones life ...no shit! Just check outthe Fighting For Steve page.

So when I whinge about how much Dave makes me hurt ...I suck it up and think of how those girls must feel ..I just don't know how they carry on. They've even thought about having to fund raise just so they can fly him to get a second opinion ...no not in the states...just London! so watch out I may well be dusting off my running shoes and asking you to dig deep.

Hooked

Well blow me down .....I've spent all weekend watching the Olympics .....and I've really enjoyed it!

I've also taken the opportunity of the JJB sale to get myself some new clobber. Now I'm seeing Dave 3 times a week and with the dreadful British weather I came to the conclsuion I needed more stuff......nothing smells worse than the smell of damp Pugh in the washing basket!

This fella isnt Usain Bolt and infact it's not a great picture of hom....this is my very own personal abuser ....Dave!

You see that tyre ......the one by the wall ....that's my aim ....to shift my very own one and to flip that one.

Me and Dave have a pact ...he will work me as hard as he likes and I will call hime all the names under the sun as loud and as often as I like. It seems to work .....and if these last few session are anything to go by he's trying to make me throw up too!

I cant begin to tell you how sick i felt after this mornings session ....but hey I gotta start my training for the Oldies Olympics ...or at least get to a point where my knickers stay up and not disappear beneath my marsupial pouch.

Dave destroys my body , and tomorrow I'm gonna tell you a bit about the person who repairs it. Jeeze .....I think I'm gonna need lottery funding ....this stuff dont come cheap!

Ben Hurr and very shy people

Here they are my new shoes! Yes I  have footballers knees ...just trying to find out what decade they belong to! and yep that beast of a woman is me at 645 this morning getting ready to face Dave! Just so you dont think I'm totally mad the only thing I do on getting out of bed is scrub my teeth. i am paying him after all! Whats a bit of bed smell gonna mean to him when he makes me sweat like a shitting dog after 10 minutes!

 I love my time with Dave yes we have a huge laugh - you should have seen my boxing today, and me on a high step just makes us fall about in a fit of giggles ....123 ...dance! If only I knew my right from left ....although then it might be a bit too serious. Being a nosey old baggage I asked him what the coiled ropes were for.  Fail!!!!!!  I honestly think that this was possibly the worst question I could ask. I was told think Ben Hurr and chariot racing ....create the wave with the whip!Well Paddy Cunningham ...after these bad boys , power and speed I actually felt sick for the first time.

Oh and in other news ...I've booked the mammogram and follow up consultants appointment. Plus I've signed up to a 10 week beginners Spanish course ( hope they get enough people).

Videos and sprouting things

So  after a year of hard work my ASICS have seen better days. For the uninititiated they are trainers , yep the same trainers that got me through the Cardiff Half Marathon last year , the same trainers I lugged all over the country to various hotels to lanquish unused with the rest of my PE kit whilst I enjoyed myself at the bar.  I thought it was about time to get a new pair .....no I'm not doing a half marathon again but I've started to get a bit of knee pain. I keep telling Dave that it's just where I haven't been out of bed long enough but I reckon it's coz the trainers have done their miles and need retiring. But what to get ...it's a trainer jungle out there!

Moti to the rescue . I've been videoed at least 8 times in 8 different trainers to make sure the I've got just the right support , I may not be pounding the pavements like last year but apparently the cross trainer can do just as much damage if you don't have the right support. Who knew????  I'm now the proud owner of a bright blue pair of New Balance and I was well chuffed at the sub £80 price tag!! Result! Think I'll wear them to my PT with Dave tomorrow oh yes and I need to take my iPhone ! Paddy Cunningham has challenged me to take weekly pictures. You have been warned .....they may contain images of pain, sweat and possibly puke!!!!

In a more pleasant vein I have had my first meal containing my sprouty things. I bought a Jamie Oliver kit from Homebase on Saturday and I harvested my first lot today......think it was cress or could have been alfalfa :) whatever it was I enjoyed it although I did get a few stomach cramps after lunch. Something I've never had before but I reckon it was just wind ........paaarrrrp!!!!!

This is turning in to more of an adventure that I had planned ....oh yes and tomorrow I make the telephone call

Pack the cases away, things are gonna get tough!

Yep the holidays are over for another year so that means this week I'll be ringing up to book  my mammogram...gulp! I'm feeling quite confident but you should never be too cocky where the Big C is concerned ... it can live up to its C word and be a right xxxx!

Anyway the summer of fun is over (apart from a few weekends away and other nonsense) so the hard work has to begin.

Remember me telling you about Paddy Cunningham? Yes you do , he's the voice of reason I've been ignoring for the past 2 months whilst I've been having fun. He's now started to whisper in my ears again and this time I'm gonna listen harder!

Believe and you will achieve - Ok Paddy you're on! I might not be able to get over to your boot camps or beach training sessions but I've spoken to my PT Dave and we are upping the ante! It's game on!

3 stone by Christmas is my goal and Dave pissed his socks off when I told him why. Ever heard of Desigual. Very very big brand in Spain and next year all I want to wear when I go back to Barcelona is this brand. Sad thing is spanish ladies are very slim so they dont do big fat heffer sizes! So I'm gonna have to move my lardy arse if I'm gonna be able to wear a coat like this :)

Oh yeah and I've told David to start saving as these babies dont come cheap and I'm gonna need a whole new wardrobe !

To help me with my goal I'm enlisting all your help ....dont tempt me with alcohol, chocs or cakes as you will only be offended if I say no. Dont get me wrong they'll still be a feature in my life, but so will seeing Dave three times a week, attempting to get down to see Mary for a yoga class and if you wanna see me , be prepared to go for a nice long walk. This bitch is getting serious ....I'm reclaiming myself and the heat is on!!!!

Sometimes you just gotta let it go

Just had a busy few days away with my team ....it's quite exhausting being me sometimes. Luckily one of my team did the driving but I'm not sure he was really expecting the conversation on the journey home :) explicit renditions of the effects radiotherapy has on your nipples isn't your average conversation. I had a huge adrenalin come down too that resulted in a few tears too. Bless him x x