David turned to me in the car tonight and asked me why I was so sad. We both decided it was because its coming up to that time of the year when I have to go for my annual mammogram and check up. I don't think the cancer has come back, but I've had an itchy boob recently and that's how we discovered it in the first place.
What I have decided though is that I'm not going to book anything until after our summer holidays, in the scheme of things a couple of months isn't going to hurt. Now I've faced what's bugging me and I can on with the serious business of enjoying my life.
I love my job, I work with people who make me laugh and daily I feel confidence returning. In other news my beautiful boy is coming to stay .....well he's not a boy anymore he's a grown man...but he's still good for a cuddle and he's got a wicked sense of humour too. He's gonna house sit for us whilst we are away ......when I asked him if he would be bored on his own he soon said no and that he's looking forward to the break. I know the lovely neighbours will look after him well.
Had another bad dream tonight...but maybe now I know what's really eating me up I'll settle down.......time will tell.
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