Videos and sprouting things

So  after a year of hard work my ASICS have seen better days. For the uninititiated they are trainers , yep the same trainers that got me through the Cardiff Half Marathon last year , the same trainers I lugged all over the country to various hotels to lanquish unused with the rest of my PE kit whilst I enjoyed myself at the bar.  I thought it was about time to get a new pair .....no I'm not doing a half marathon again but I've started to get a bit of knee pain. I keep telling Dave that it's just where I haven't been out of bed long enough but I reckon it's coz the trainers have done their miles and need retiring. But what to get ...it's a trainer jungle out there!

Moti to the rescue . I've been videoed at least 8 times in 8 different trainers to make sure the I've got just the right support , I may not be pounding the pavements like last year but apparently the cross trainer can do just as much damage if you don't have the right support. Who knew????  I'm now the proud owner of a bright blue pair of New Balance and I was well chuffed at the sub £80 price tag!! Result! Think I'll wear them to my PT with Dave tomorrow oh yes and I need to take my iPhone ! Paddy Cunningham has challenged me to take weekly pictures. You have been warned .....they may contain images of pain, sweat and possibly puke!!!!

In a more pleasant vein I have had my first meal containing my sprouty things. I bought a Jamie Oliver kit from Homebase on Saturday and I harvested my first lot today......think it was cress or could have been alfalfa :) whatever it was I enjoyed it although I did get a few stomach cramps after lunch. Something I've never had before but I reckon it was just wind ........paaarrrrp!!!!!

This is turning in to more of an adventure that I had planned ....oh yes and tomorrow I make the telephone call

Pack the cases away, things are gonna get tough!

Yep the holidays are over for another year so that means this week I'll be ringing up to book  my mammogram...gulp! I'm feeling quite confident but you should never be too cocky where the Big C is concerned ... it can live up to its C word and be a right xxxx!

Anyway the summer of fun is over (apart from a few weekends away and other nonsense) so the hard work has to begin.

Remember me telling you about Paddy Cunningham? Yes you do , he's the voice of reason I've been ignoring for the past 2 months whilst I've been having fun. He's now started to whisper in my ears again and this time I'm gonna listen harder!

Believe and you will achieve - Ok Paddy you're on! I might not be able to get over to your boot camps or beach training sessions but I've spoken to my PT Dave and we are upping the ante! It's game on!

3 stone by Christmas is my goal and Dave pissed his socks off when I told him why. Ever heard of Desigual. Very very big brand in Spain and next year all I want to wear when I go back to Barcelona is this brand. Sad thing is spanish ladies are very slim so they dont do big fat heffer sizes! So I'm gonna have to move my lardy arse if I'm gonna be able to wear a coat like this :)

Oh yeah and I've told David to start saving as these babies dont come cheap and I'm gonna need a whole new wardrobe !

To help me with my goal I'm enlisting all your help ....dont tempt me with alcohol, chocs or cakes as you will only be offended if I say no. Dont get me wrong they'll still be a feature in my life, but so will seeing Dave three times a week, attempting to get down to see Mary for a yoga class and if you wanna see me , be prepared to go for a nice long walk. This bitch is getting serious ....I'm reclaiming myself and the heat is on!!!!

Sometimes you just gotta let it go

Just had a busy few days away with my team ....it's quite exhausting being me sometimes. Luckily one of my team did the driving but I'm not sure he was really expecting the conversation on the journey home :) explicit renditions of the effects radiotherapy has on your nipples isn't your average conversation. I had a huge adrenalin come down too that resulted in a few tears too. Bless him x x

Race for life

Gosh my life has been busy lately and it's not due to stop any time soon. At least I have a holiday on Thursday and I'm off to Spain to spend time with Roseann on the fincA. Some very strange emotions were re awoken today as my lovely neighbour is running Race For Life. Her hubby asked me if I was doing it and I had to tell him no as I find it to emotional. Before I got cancer I used to do Race For Life , I found it a very moving experience, I would spend the whole 5k in floods of tears, both amazed and proud of the reasons people were there , for me there was always feeling of collective grief. It the same feeling I get when I walk in a church, especially catholic ones. I remember walking into a church in Majorca and I was totally overwhelmed, the tears started almost immediately, it was the same when I went to Sacre Coer, just can't explain it. However St Paul's was a totally different feeling I actually found it a joyous place. Strange eh?? Anyway back to Race For Life, I remember running it with my good friend Rosie one year and she said she had never known anyone with cancer , little did we know then about the mutant cells multiplying in my breast! Have I told you about my bad dreams?? They are horrific, very graphic and frightening, normally involving death of someone ....I even dreamt my lovely little Sofia who is only 3 died in horrific circumstances. It seems I'm not alone, one of my BC friends is experiencing the same thing.her doc has put it down to the tamoxifen and I'm inclined to agree. Both Val and I had the same cancer, same treatment plan and are about the same age. I'm hoping like her I'll get the all clear for another year when I go back next month. I'm going away again for a couple of days later , it's only work but I think I'm gonna like it. The team always lift my spirits and they are great fun to be with......somedays they are the only reason I get out of bed!